I have something called functional neurological disorder (or atleast it's the doctor's best guest at whatever the fuck is wrong with me). For those of you who don't know what it is, it's a neurological disorder that impacts how the brain works. Physically there is nothing wrong with my brain, it just sends the wrong signals to my body which can cause all manner of issues. One way my FND manifests is with speech issues; I developed a stammer out of nowhere and I also struggle with speech loss. As someone who has always prided themself on their fluency, it has definitely knocked my confidence. My first episode of speech loss was actually caused by my anxiety about going to school with a stammer.

Over the past two days, I have been struggling a lot with my speech,;my stammer has been worse and I keep losing my speech. Today however, I challenged myself to go out and order a coffee. For someone without a disability, it's a simple task,but for someone who is disabled, getting a coffee can be a big deal. I am pretty proud of myself for going through with it.